on familial time and time spent well
Dec. 22nd, 2025 09:52 pmmy mother wanted me to spend more time with my family. and that's totally fine. my conflict was that she wanted me to, e.g., watch a movie i didn't find appealing. she considered my avoidance of doing things i dont want to do as a sign that i dont care for my family. after a retreat to the showers, and some time contemplating meaningless branches of potential courses of action and potential responses to these actions (nothing violent), i came to the response that i should discern "time spent enjoying my family's company" and "time spent doing what i do not want to do". because no, i do not want to compromise. i dont want to watch Zootopia 2 or whatever. specifically there, when watching a movie, all your attention is on the film, not on your family. the second in command is, like, the popcorn being shared around, definitely not your family. she asked me to describe something i'd like to do that didn't just interest me (for example, a few days ago we played Luigi's Mansion 3, which i thought was because she wanted to try it or something, but she only chose to play it because it's a game i like), and i gave the example of Skip-Bo, because that's one of her favorite games. and she said sure let's play skip-bo and i said ok, well, you get my point, too, and she said yeah pretty much and so that's how that went, basically. i realize it could've gone a different, better way, for example i miraculously discard all self-morale and decide to fling myself toward whatever she decides rather than to have any earthly want, and if i were to truly enjoy this outcome i wouldn't give a care in the world and it would go oh so smoothly. but alas. i tend to want things every once in a while. but still, it went pretty well i think.
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Date: 2025-12-24 04:38 am (UTC)Love is compromise, sacrifice.