comix64 | drones, jabber contacts, stray encounter

drones always give me a sense of dread. when i was little, there was this small black and green drone that we had for a little, and i was terrified of it. i was afraid of every insect ever, too, so it's reasonable to say i was afraid of anything small that moved. it once knocked into my face and broke. i never piloted it. later in my life, around 10, i bought the same model. it worked well, and i had a few flights with it. its battery was abysmal, and it usually needed a recharge after every flight. after a while of use, maybe 3 days, it stopped having enough total battery health to support a normally-lengthed flight. one of its blades was accidentally folded in my backpack, and it became useless. whenever i see a drone, i get this sensation of dread or misery. even when it isn't my drone, i still feel like it's a waste. like i put money into it and now it doesn't work. this happens even when i witness other people using professional-grade, long lasting drones. i always feel like every drone is going to drop dead, and im going to have my time or value or whatever wasted on it. i always feel like every drone is going to get fucked up and be a waste of spent resources. this is especially when i hear their fuzzy propeller-sound. probably because both of the identical drone models i had/was terrified of failed due to their propeller getting clipped. to be fair, these were the only drones that were owned by anyone near me, and they were pretty cheap. still, they set my mental standard for "drone", and so i dont like drones. im not, like, flinching at their presence, but their presence instills at least a little dread in me.

i got two of my peers to get Jabber. i realize this was a mistake, since they're, you know, teenagers, so now the precious sanctity of my decentralized, encrypted and obscure messaging address has a lot of "goy goy goy goyim jew" on one side and "allah akbar retigga" on the other. do i like this humor? fuck no! am i glad to at least have, like, anyone on Jabber? yes. if i had the choice i would pick more... contemplative peoples. of my classmates, the people i would rather have on there have all decided not to even consider using Jabber. whatever. it sucks that it's considered such a nerdy thing since it's so easy to use.

i keep seeing stray cats around the neighborhood and in my backyard. today i went to the backyard for some air and saw one. it stared at me. after a few minutes of standing and looking around, i sat. it sat. i thought this meant a really good chance of getting to pet it, but it left before i could get any closer. i want to have a pet cat, but the fur-shedding'd probably outweight the petting.