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i am in here, flickr, grace
you know, i guess i could be compared to Hal. he's all about being In Here. but he always tries to prove this by describing his behaviors in the light of a sentience. a single-neuroned punk'd never be able to fully consider and then say things like The Library; And Step On It on a regular basis, so surely Hal's really in there. i cant really prove myself via behaviors, because i'm autistic, and most of my noticeable behaviors are ones i dont notice (it's sort of like how it takes a little to notice an ocular migrane, or how you can't tell there's something on your face if you don't feel it), dont approve of and are pretty annoying to people around me (e.x., i was playing Garry's Mod with a chum of mine the other day, whom is also autistic, and he used "dihh" in completely novel ways, i heard many variations of "Rest in peace my fishy he got hit by a bazooka", which included "Rest in peace my grandma she got bit by a fishy" and "Rest in peace my bazooka he got hit by a grandma". these sorts of things also apply to me, but im not really aware of myself doing it, so i cant really provide any examples of mine), so i dont really like to associate my behavior with myself, since it tends to be that my behavior isnt really a conscious thing, and isnt really what i strive to be. that is, i have no clue how to express who i am without my behavior, looks or physicality, since my sentience is anchored to my body, and more specifically how i use it.
i opened a flickr, but im probably going to close it. as of writing i have 80 views, which is really weird because i registered today and only uploaded ~80 photos, out of the 1,000 max for a free account. they're all the same photos i have on my UNIX.dog page, so i wont lose anything. i wanted to make a flickr specifically because it lets you look at photo metadata (camera make, flash, f-stop, location...) and i thought that was cool. i dont think its worth it, though. i have no clue what flickr can do with my photos. i still wipe geolocation data, though.
i got back into playing Grace, the roblox game. roblox has really gotten shitty lately. i cant use the chat w/o age verification, so i cant talk to anyone at all. that sucks. it's basically the only roblox game i play, though. i really like it because it's very stimulating. it's sort of like a juggling-act version of warioware, where warioware is a series of small games one after the other, and grace is a lot of even smaller games (look at this guy, dont look at this guy, flash your light when this guy is around, hide when this guy is about to come in, dont be holding anything when this guy comes in, crouch when this guy comes in, look around for something to take a picture of when this guy starts screaming, dont let this guy catch up to you, etc.) which make them individually very easy to handle, but really hard if you have a lot of things to do in one run. it all leads up to a very adrenaline-inducing run each time you play, but is completely incomprehensible without a lot of context (e.x., the pink tablet is called SNAP, and whenever you have a free moment (usually once you've hidden from Carnation and are waiting for her to come through) it will begin screaming and you must equip it, look around for a flower, and then use your primary fire to shoot a picture of it before SNAP comes out of the screen. the screen will shatter up to thrice before this, based on how long it takes you, however the screen doesn't reset when you go into the next saferoom and takes a few runs to go back to normal, similar to how your vision doesn't reset until after a few runs whenever you look at Slight (the blue eye) or look away from Heed (the red eye). see how complex this is?)
i opened a flickr, but im probably going to close it. as of writing i have 80 views, which is really weird because i registered today and only uploaded ~80 photos, out of the 1,000 max for a free account. they're all the same photos i have on my UNIX.dog page, so i wont lose anything. i wanted to make a flickr specifically because it lets you look at photo metadata (camera make, flash, f-stop, location...) and i thought that was cool. i dont think its worth it, though. i have no clue what flickr can do with my photos. i still wipe geolocation data, though.
i got back into playing Grace, the roblox game. roblox has really gotten shitty lately. i cant use the chat w/o age verification, so i cant talk to anyone at all. that sucks. it's basically the only roblox game i play, though. i really like it because it's very stimulating. it's sort of like a juggling-act version of warioware, where warioware is a series of small games one after the other, and grace is a lot of even smaller games (look at this guy, dont look at this guy, flash your light when this guy is around, hide when this guy is about to come in, dont be holding anything when this guy comes in, crouch when this guy comes in, look around for something to take a picture of when this guy starts screaming, dont let this guy catch up to you, etc.) which make them individually very easy to handle, but really hard if you have a lot of things to do in one run. it all leads up to a very adrenaline-inducing run each time you play, but is completely incomprehensible without a lot of context (e.x., the pink tablet is called SNAP, and whenever you have a free moment (usually once you've hidden from Carnation and are waiting for her to come through) it will begin screaming and you must equip it, look around for a flower, and then use your primary fire to shoot a picture of it before SNAP comes out of the screen. the screen will shatter up to thrice before this, based on how long it takes you, however the screen doesn't reset when you go into the next saferoom and takes a few runs to go back to normal, similar to how your vision doesn't reset until after a few runs whenever you look at Slight (the blue eye) or look away from Heed (the red eye). see how complex this is?)